How many of us can say that with no discomfort and no costume? It’s taken me a while. When I showed this work to someone he said, “that’s you isn’t it?” I was a little taken aback but it was easier to handle than the one who had said, “A little Botero, yes?” And smiled to himself.
And more years of practice have allowed me to see that I may be putting out something disturbing and when I do I’m likely to get a response I might feel uncomfortable with. Brene Brown‘s work on vulnerability has an enormous influence on my becoming real.
Growing up I was made to be ashamed of what I looked like and who I was. There was a push me – pull me between my parents; my mother was ashamed to have a TomBoy and my father loved to taunt her for any reason with anything he could. It was often me.
So it isn’t that much of a stretch to see why I might have chosen what I paint and what I see. I even think I chose them so I could get some hands on experience and build up courage.